What?! It's going to be fall already!

Where did summer go, we are onto fall already?! It's been a month since I posted I see, not too much has happened.

Todd turned 36 in August, our 3rd wedding anniversary was in September & the lovely Printston Paws turned 9! We have had a lot of fun this summer. I'm glad I'm not blogged down w/ dr appts & doing meds, that I can freely do what I want to do.

I am now the Office Manager at work. It's going good so far, I don't know if I like being the sole one that knows it all & does it all but I have always seen myself being in a leader position.

I find myself thinking a lot about having a child still. It will always be in my mind whatever I do. I have a friend that struggles just like I do & I see her struggling w/appts & meds & life & work & I say to myself, "I'm glad I'm not worrying about this right now, but will I ever get that chance just like every other woman".

Adoption has ran through my mind a lot, all I have is time now to sit & ponder my thoughts. I go back & forth about it. I know some people that work for agencies & have received recommendations but just making that first step is difficult & emotional. I would foster to potentially adopt to cut the costs way down. I'm not sure if this is what I want. I think, how can I work full time, care for 2 dogs & my home & to bring a child in to make things work. Todd responds with "well you just do, you make it work!" My friend & I have talked about adoption a lot w/each other, it's good to get different opinions on this & discuss our differences. We both agree that just like struggling w/infertility, the process of fostering to adopt would be just as hard. Just to *THINK* that the child could be taken away if you foster is mind blowing to us. It's very expensive to do a domestic adoption, but almost free to foster to adopt but there are fine lines to read on both.

I have thought of doing treatments again, I don't want to fully give up yet but it will be next year that I think about this. I feel I do have time on my side for a little bit. My sister in law who is 36 just had her 3rd child & I think, I'm not even 29 yet-so time is still on my side. I don't have to push & push so hard right now. I would attempt one IVF cycle (the big whamy of treatments) but to have a 50/50 chance of it being successful isn't the % I'm looking for. All of us would love that 100% of success but that is life, it's a gamble. You have to throw your chips out there blindsided & just hope for the best.

So for now, I'm enjoying my time w/work & family & friends. I love doing things freely & not worrying about the petty things. Enjoy your fall!