Earlier than I thought.............

That is what happened yesterday, another cycle arrived yesterday earlier than I had expected YAY for me!!! It started with some light spotting so I knew Monday it was over already. Tues showed up with a great present! (enter as much sarcasm as you would like)

Called Dr. K's office & the nurse called back with 2 options. My heart sank because I never heard anything different than "come in tomorrow for an appointment". First option was to schedule a consult appt with Dr. K to discuss the plan or 2) start a new medication called Lupron on day 21 of my cycle. This month will be considered a "break month" since I'm not starting meds until end of my cycle. Lupron, which I'm learning about gradually will stop the pituitary gland from producing estrogen hormones that would make me ovulate so Dr. K has more control over my hormones & how the follicles are produced. Whereas right now, my body does that on it's own with the help of the Bravelle. So this will be started on day 21 which is on 2-15-10. It's 10 units (very small amount) injected the same way every evening & will stay on this the entire month. I will then get another cycle about 1 week later (usual time) & will call Dr. K's office to start the Bravelle again. So it's kinda the same protocol but this time Dr. K has more control (hopefully) on how the follicles mature up & hopefully the quality of the follicle.

I have a hard time understanding that I had 6-7 follicles & still none of them worked. That tells me that either there was no egg or the quality is just so bad that it didn't take on any of the sperm OR an IUI should be done to determine the quality of the sperm again since it has been awhile since that was done. We will determine what the best step would be once I start the Bravelle, which will not be until end of Feb.

Of course I had my good cry yesterday & the thoughts of "why me, what did I do to deserve this, what can't I be normal". I have slept on those thoughts & talking with a friend yesterday (who is also struggling) & we are determined together not to give up, we have to fight & find the reasons & answers as to WHY. So that is the update. I will update in a few weeks once the Lupron is started but I'll take the next few weeks for myself.