AND BREATHE.........

Today I was scheduled for a second ultrasound , first appointment with my OB. I, of course am already having my nerves get the best of me before I even leave the house. My chest hurts, dry mouth and just shaky. I arrive to only have the nurse ask me " why are you here today?" I replied with and I know I am right " ultrasound and appointment with Dr. M afterwards. Oh, well, we don't have an ultrasound tech in today, and we don't have you on the schedule for anything today and I could just feel my blood pressure rising. I KNEW it was today, the nurse told me it was today. I asked if the dr could do the scan, nope they said he couldn't and he was too busy and asked why I needed an appointment anyways. I explained my previous early losses, and I needed this appointment to reassure me that my baby is ok! She asked if I wanted to be sent to our hospital for the test or I could reschedule for next week. I have already waited for this day to arrive, there was no way I was going to leave without seeing my baby! I cried and cried in the office, Todd got up and gave them his opinion on this whole situation. The office manager came out to us and apologized for the confusion that the dr would do the scan and see us beforehand. I was feeling better and how can the dr NOT know how to do an ultrasound?

The first initial appointment went well, just some Q & A's and then I had to drink a whole water bottle before the ultrasound, that wasn't hard because at that point I had been so upset with dry mouth that I finished that water in 5 mins. The ultrasound was done on my tummy and I thought for sure nothing was going to be seen this early and then there pops up my baby! "HE" as I will call it, has grown so much and Dr.M wasn't too familiar with the machine but he was able to zoom in and we seen the heart beating still going strong. He was moving around a lot as well. We did not get any pictures this time, was not able to turn the volume on right to hear the heartbeat nor did he do measurements to see how far along I was! I was ok with that, as long as I was still able to see that heartbeat, I was going to be able to breathe again.

So I will return on 3/18/11, 3weeks from now for another ultrasound. The office manager stated if anytime I wanted to come in, they will let that happen but I think I will be ok for 3 weeks. So far so good, I truly can't believe this is finally happening, I can breathe now!!